Hello.
<--I'm a huge fan of the guy right there :) Saranghae Rain!!♥
Don't know who you are but obviously that doesn't matter.^^
I've never had a blog before so I don't know what I should or should not share.
However, I think I'll answer the question " what has been the most difficult for me and why?" in this blog entry.
To do so, I will have to share where I come from first so that everyone has a clearer picture on why I am the way I am.
So let's talk about my dad for a minute. >:]
I never met my 압바 until I was 7 and I he never came to live in Omaha until I was 13. In terms of looks, I take after his side of the family. I sometimes like it and sometimes i don't I was picked on a lot by my older brother and sister for looking different than they do. My siblings and I have different fathers but they all took after mom except me. TT.TT She claims I got her smarts though, go figure. Anyway, in terms of personality, my appa and I are identical to the point of annoyance. We tend to be silent at times, and come across as somewhat weird because of our peculiar way of thinking. When speaking, we tend to beat around the bush and can talk for a very long time about nothing. However, if we have nothing to say then we don't speak. I know it sounds weird but that's just how we are. That's just how I am. My father is married now and has a step-son and a new baby boy. I don't feel left out or excluded from their little family because I never really consider myself being outside of any family. I treat no one any different from anybody else. He is happy and content and that's all I can wish for. I was his only child until now and he never got the opportunity to raise a child before so I am happy that he has the chance now. 사링해압바!!♥
I guess what I'm trying to say is that I get a lot of my personality from my dad. When we are in the same room together it's like talking to myself. My biggest problem is that there are times when I just don't feel like talking or socializing, I inherited this from him by the way, and would rather sit back and watch others interact. To some this might make me come across as rather cold or rude, when in truth I'm a very warm, happy person. There are just times when I just don't want to talk and would rather listen. I honestly don't want people to believe that I am mean or stuck-up, it's just the way I am.
So the most challenging thing for me here, at Summer Scholars, was breaking out of the shell I put myself in unconsciously. I want people to see the happy-go-lucky, funny person that I truly am. It was difficult because all around me people were so excited and happy and I had just entered one of my moods where, although I was excited too, I just couldn't express it as jubilantly as others. I didn't want to set out and intentionally exclude myself from others it's just the way things happened. :(
Towards the end of the first week, I believe I gradually moved out of my shell, and communicated more with my peers. However, I know I was no where close to fully expressing myself. Hopefully before the program is over, people will be able to see the real me.
Also...here is a translation of the Korean words used so that everyone isn't confused :)
안녕= hello
압바= dad
사링해압바= I love you dad
Saranghae= I love you.
Bye for now~♥
